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A quick tale 28

The other side

All his life he’d been told that he should work hard and become famous, rich, successful. He did and became all that in a far away land. Now they complain bitterly about growing old alone.

A quick tale 14

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ranganathan said…
அன்புள்ள அம்மனி அவர்களுக்கு,

பெரிய ஆளுப்பா நீங்க!!

சிறுகதையைத் தொடர்கதையாக்கத் துணிஞ்சிட்டீங்க!!

என்றும் அன்புடன்,
ரங்கநாதன்
Smyta said…
Ammani,

That is so touchingly true!

Smyta
~phobiac~ said…
ammani....sooperu !!
Anonymous said…
Ammani.Beautiful.......My parents want me to go to US and I left my job in India and came here.....now they are feeling alone.....supberb...U told my 25 year story in 2 lines.......amazing
Ram.C said…
amazingly touchy....
ioiio said…
the worst part is that our parents wanted us to settle here! but they dont even consider that as an option. And still complain abt being lonely!
Ramesh said…
very good and very true..
WA said…
Spot on Ammani
Charukesi said…
... and they stand in line in the hot sun waiting for their visa...

great stuff, ammani - first time here and am hooked - now going thru your archives...
thennavan said…
Ammani, hope you saw the article by Ramya in THE HINDU today on blogger meets (you are also mentioned :-)). Ok here is another attempt at translating this:

Avan nandraaga varavendum endru ninaiththaargal.
Andha petrorin kanavum baliththathu.
Aanaal ondraaga irukkamaattom endru avargal ninaikkavillai.
Andha suttram illaadha ninaivum
valiththathu.

:-)
mukesh yadav said…
nice, Ammani u told a truth beautifully. but fact is that no one full fill one,s expectations. it can be full filled but without expectation.
mky_journalist@yahoo.com
ammani said…
Excellent, Thennavan!
Manu said…
My first time here too. Ammani.. you have said a story that I don't want to become true in my life. I have seen it happen to many people around me and hopefully I will learn from what I see around me.

Thennavan, excellent translation.. Maybe you should start a specialized translated column for Ammani's Tamil readers .
Sundaresan said…
Ammani,

As already someone told, last 27 varushatha oru 2 varila sollitteenga....Thennavan's translation was good too!

Thanks,
Sundaresan
Awesome, as always!:-)
Balaji said…
I'm inspired by you to write a quick tale in my blog. Your comments abt it?
Mukesh said…
nice, everybody is alone in the crowed .
AF said…
Nice on ammani
Balaji said…
Ammani,

Did one more tale. Its great fun to attempt quick tales.
KK said…
Ammani....fantastic...first time on your blog, i'm hooked reading the archives, late for work, forgotten my hunger in your delicious drawls about vengaya sambhar, milagu kuzhambu,thayir sadham...there's so much in common, madras, college, living far away...in the UK........i'm almost wondering if our paths have crossed before!!

wow, and hats off to be able to write that beautifully. keep 'em coming.....
Parii said…
Wow, your blog is really an amazing place! What a unique concept! Keep 'em coming :)
Amrita said…
clearly, fame and money does not seem to be everything..i wonder why people still lust after it. it seems now, money more than a necessity has become a passion. But we repent only later.
Now I am a trifle confused. Are we blaming the son here or also blaming the parents?
If I am not wrong, the blame is on both sides. Not that they are the same. Nevertheless...
really enjoyed it. Thanks!

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